Friday, 1 May 2026

Rewind

Its 3:30 AM

and I cannot sleep

at 35 years old

kalau aku tak cukup tido  macam ni

I just know 

mesti akan demam selsema ni

tak macam dulu dulu


 But somehow

I am stuck rewatching a story

about rewinding time

what does it mean


my go to story

familiar wife punya k drama

tapi aku tak nak cakap pasal cerita familiar wife

aku nak cakap pasal another

time rewinding movie

reversi


reversi ni

cerita pasal rewinding time

bertema kan

kalau kita boleh undurkan masa ke suatu masa dulu

apa benda yang kita nak ubah

and that story come to the same conclusion as mine


aku nak rewind masa sampai 

aku tak lahir langsung

aku fikir 

If I go back and change this

would I be happy

tak jugak


ok 

if I go further back and change that 

would I be happy

well.....

entahla, macam tak jugak kot


and If I keep going further back

last sekali

conclusionnya 

patah balik sampai aku tak lahir terus


tapi tu lah

story of my life


Esok nak berlari marathon

tapi rehat tak cukup


Saturday, 7 March 2026

35 years old

 Assalamualaikum


Aku just nak bagitahu

hating your job at 35 years old 

just sucks


kau tak boleh nak kompromi keje jauh

tak boleh nak kompromi gaji kecik

tak boleh nak kompromi waktu bekerja

because your family want stability from you

But I still have not figured out life yet


Now 

anak aku dah nak masuk darjah 1

pening woi

aku pulak tengah mengada nak cari kerja lain

canno